Gaining Tempo

Well, if you are not me, then you should probably stop reading.

That's a weird way to start writing anything I guess. This is not the beginning of a diary, at-least not right now.

I just wanted to get a few things out. I was reading an article about how to get rid of absent mindedness. Mainly because I couldn't find my umbrella at office. It said that we should try to bring about discipline in our activities and convert it into a matter of habit. Also, I read an article about how to stop overthinking and start doing things. Of late, I have been in a conundrum about how I should proceed in life and I don't seem to be getting anything done. My job's great. It hasn't been a problem in any sense. 2 months into it and things have been great. But I've always kept in mind that I've to keep getting better. That's quite natural I guess or at-least should be. 

My parents are also high on expectations. They want me to go on to achieve a lot of things. They suggest what I should do. I am not sure if they quite understand what's best for me but they certainly, beyond any doubt, intend the best for me. They want me to 'secure' the best route. They say I am free to do what I want.

The thought of being reduced to a 'has been' is scary. I have always felt that I have great potential. I don't mean for some kind of achievement but to perform to the best of my own capacity.

I have been fortunate to have had a holistic upbringing . So far, I have done well in life. I am, by no stretch of imagination, in a bad situation but I am generally left wondering what I should be doing to get better. I guess the expectations of everyone around me have a huge role in this but at the same time, the thought is somewhere deep rooted within me.

The people close to me feel that I start off things really well but my momentum fizzles out, always. So I guess capacity has never been the issue with me. Sustaining the intensity of efforts is. I do understand the problem, yet, I haven't really been able to get off the blocks and do what's really needed.

The article I read said that, to stop overthinking and start doing things, you just need to 'START DOING THINGS!'. That's the dream! Let's live it!

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P.S. A beautiful quote by Patanjali:

When you are inspired by some great purpose, some extraordinary project, all your thoughts break their bonds: 

Your mind transcends limitations, your consciousness expands in every direction, and you find yourself in a new, great and wonderful world. 

Dormant forces, faculties and talents become alive, and you discover yourself to be a greater person by far than you ever dreamed yourself to be.