Impermanence of Emotions

Got my first increment yesterday. A kind of milestone in my professional career. Since it is just my 1st year, it is really not given much importance within the organization. But still, way below my expectation.  The funny part is, it saddened me more to know that my colleagues were rewarded slightly better. No matter how I put it, I must admit the stark reality that my sense of satisfaction is also subject to how I am treated relative to others.  That appraisal is something I am not okay with leaving to the randomness of the system. I know I deserved better. And so do most people around me even though they don't really care. They have their own expectations to deal with.

It is quite possible that the self defeating fallacy; everyone thinks they deserve better could be applicable. But I am not convinced. Should I involve myself in convincing others that I actually deserve more? It is in these times that you understand how relevant the immensity of the below verse is:

कर्मण्येवाधिकारस्ते मा फलेषु कदाचन । मा कर्मफलहेतुर्भुर्मा ते संगोऽस्त्वकर्मणि ॥

You have a right to perform your prescribed duty, but you are not entitled to the fruits of action. Never consider yourself to be the cause of the results of your activities, and never be attached to not doing your duty. - Bhagavad Gita, Chapter II, Verse 47

Even the disappointment is fleeting. I cannot be perennially sad for the turn of events. Nor can I be unceasingly happy for it. I should move beyond having unconscious emotions towards every situation and consciously experience them without bias.  In times of COVID-19, people are losing their jobs and I just had several thousand rupees deposited in my account. Still I manage to dwell on the infinitesimally small misery of mine. This doesn't mean I should suffer any injustice towards me. But it definitely means that I need not suffer in terms of my emotions and state of my mind, because they are impermanent by their very nature.